Friday, January 03, 2014

Just A Thought: 2014.....loading!

It's been almost a month since I posted something here. I've been busy with the things I prayed months ago. A lot of stuff with regards to my Masters Degree. There's reflection papers, case study reports, thoughts about legal basis, reporting, etc. There were also a lot of meetings, programs, gift giving, kasalang bayan, and Christmas parties at the City Hall. I know I prayed for this. But never in my wildest dream would I have imagined that it will all come true. I was determined to get this but I never thought that the universe will agree...

Anyway, all these things started with this message I got from an fb app called "God wants you to know..."

afternoon of June 16, 2013
I posted this because that time, I was thinking to resign. I didn't think it would mean more than that. This message made a huge sense after I heard the saddest, most heartbreaking, and life shattering news of my life.

After that, without any second thoughts, I passed my resignation. I remembered all the things I planned and wanted in my life. I brood over the things that my father wanted and dreamed for me. I want to teach. I want a Masters Degree at UP Diliman. I still want to teach the oppressed and marginalized people. I don't want to work in a call center anymore.

I started my unemployed life by taking a short course at Calamba Manpower Development Center. I took Bread & Pastry Production NC II and I already got my certificate. I also took MATE or the Masters Admission Test in Education. I passed, I enrolled and 3 months from now, I'll finish my first semester in UP Diliman. I was also able to renew my license as a Professional Teacher. This is it. I am getting there.

Another thing I prayed so hard is for God to remind me that my purpose is not in a BPO industry. I worked there for 4 years. I enjoyed it but I was not fulfilled. There were a lot of times when I was tempted to apply again because I want money. You can imagine how depressed I was four or five months ago. I was broke. I was incomplete. I was left behind. It's like I was living someone else's life that I am not used to. It was like I'm in a bad dream. Everyday I was praying that everything was just a dream. When I heard that before, I thought it was only a cliche. But, no. It's real. It is happening. There will be an unfortunate event in your life and all you can do is just wish. Wish that it was a just a bad dream. But every morning, every single morning, reality will smack me and remind me that it is not.

I miss my dad. I know he will be the first one to say, ang galing ko. And to quote one of The Scripts' songs, I hope he's up there with God saying, 'That's my kid!'

 Moving on, I know several people were asking how I ended up working in the City Government of Calamba. Simple. I sent them a message that they might need me. And they do. They asked me to visit Mayor's Office, job offer, and that's it. I believe this is God working on my life. A day before that, a call center company was calling me and they're offering a job. God answered my prayer. Transcom will be the first and last call center company I'll be connected with.

Who would have thought that I will be working with the Mayor? That there's a job wherein you'll just stalk your crush and get paid? kidding! But yes, our City Mayor is super guapo, super talino and very opinionated. It actually came to the point that I don''t feel like working at all.

Ou City Mayor - Atty. Justin Marc SB Chipeco

Speaking of the Mayor, I remember that we will have our meeting / planning tomorrow with the department heads. City Mayor + department heads + me. Again, who would have thought? Haha.

God says, "Forget what happened before, and do not think about the past. Look at the new thing I am going to do. It is already happening. Don't you see it?" (Isaiah 43:18-19)

Dear 2013,
I am glad and joyful that you are finally done.
You broke my heart into tiny pieces.
I don't hate you but I don't like you.
Happy New Year!

xoxo