Just A Thought: 2014.....loading!

It's been almost a month since I posted something here. I've been busy with the things I prayed months ago. A lot of stuff with regards to my Masters Degree. There's reflection papers, case study reports, thoughts about legal basis, reporting, etc. There were also a lot of meetings, programs, gift giving, kasalang bayan, and Christmas parties at the City Hall. I know I prayed for this. But never in my wildest dream would I have imagined that it will all come true. I was determined to get this but I never thought that the universe will agree...

Anyway, all these things started with this message I got from an fb app called "God wants you to know..."

afternoon of June 16, 2013

I posted this because that time, I was thinking to resign. I didn't think it would mean more than that. This message made a huge sense after I heard the saddest, most heartbreaking, and life shattering news of my life.

After that, without any second thoughts, I passed my resignation. I remembered all the things I planned and wanted in my life. I brood over the things that my father wanted and dreamed for me. I want to teach. I want a Masters Degree at UP Diliman. I still want to teach the oppressed and marginalized people. I don't want to work in a call center anymore.

I started my unemployed life by taking a short course at Calamba Manpower Development Center. I took Bread & Pastry Production NC II and I already got my certificate. I also took MATE or the Masters Admission Test in Education. I passed, I enrolled and 3 months from now, I'll finish my first semester in UP Diliman. I was also able to renew my license as a Professional Teacher. This is it. I am getting there.

Another thing I prayed so hard is for God to remind me that my purpose is not in a BPO industry. I worked there for 4 years. I enjoyed it but I was not fulfilled. There were a lot of times when I was tempted to apply again because I want money. You can imagine how depressed I was four or five months ago. I was broke. I was incomplete. I was left behind. It's like I was living someone else's life that I am not used to. It was like I'm in a bad dream. Everyday I was praying that everything was just a dream. When I heard that before, I thought it was only a cliche. But, no. It's real. It is happening. There will be an unfortunate event in your life and all you can do is just wish. Wish that it was a just a bad dream. But every morning, every single morning, reality will smack me and remind me that it is not.

I miss my dad. I know he will be the first one to say, ang galing ko. And to quote one of The Scripts' songs, I hope he's up there with God saying, 'That's my kid!'

 Moving on, I know several people were asking how I ended up working in the City Government of Calamba. Simple. I sent them a message that they might need me. And they do. They asked me to visit Mayor's Office, job offer, and that's it. I believe this is God working on my life. A day before that, a call center company was calling me and they're offering a job. God answered my prayer. Transcom will be the first and last call center company I'll be connected with.

Who would have thought that I will be working with the Mayor? That there's a job wherein you'll just stalk your crush and get paid? kidding! But yes, our City Mayor is super guapo, super talino and very opinionated. It actually came to the point that I don''t feel like working at all.

Ou City Mayor - Atty. Justin Marc SB Chipeco

Speaking of the Mayor, I remember that we will have our meeting / planning tomorrow with the department heads. City Mayor + department heads + me. Again, who would have thought? Haha.

God says, "Forget what happened before, and do not think about the past. Look at the new thing I am going to do. It is already happening. Don't you see it?" (Isaiah 43:18-19)

Dear 2013,
I am glad and joyful that you are finally done.
You broke my heart into tiny pieces.
I don't hate you but I don't like you.
Happy New Year!

xoxo

Just A Thought: Posible.

Gusto kong maging guro.

Sa Pilipinas.

Sa liblib na lugar.

Yung hindi ka lang basta guro.

Yung tipong isa kang life-changer.

Ayoko mangibang bansa.

Ayokong magtrabaho para sa ibang lahi.

Gusto ko dito.

Gusto kong makitang unti-unti tayong umuunlad.

Lalong lalo na ang antas ng edukasyon.

Pero gusto kong yumaman.

Gustong makabili ng sarili kong kotse.

Makapamasyal sa iba't ibang bansa.

Maitayo ang pangarap kong bahay.

Mapag-tapos ng kolehiyo mga pinsan ko.

Posible ba yon?

~

Ika nga ni DILG Secretary Jesse Robredo, mahirap yung naitulak ka lang ng unos sa ginagawa mo. Mahirap yong walang benefit ang talent mo. Not so many choices. You take what is given you. Yun ang naging buhay nya. Masuwerte na rin daw dahil overachieving pero ayon sa kanya, parang may kulang pa rin.

2 months and 3 days na akong unemployed. Okay pa naman. Hindi naman siguro ako pabigat sa bahay but at the same time, hindi rin ako nakakatulong.

"The only way to always be relevant is to focus on what's eternal. Everything in style will soon be out of style" - Pastor Rick Warren

Wag kang bibitaw sa pangarap mo, Jindra. Posible yan.

xx

Just A Thought: The Adversity of Being An Aquarius

Aquarians have extremely active minds. Whether they're planning for the future or obsessing over a current project, they spend a lot of time thinking and typically have a hard time shutting down.

- glo

Of all the characteristics of an Aquarius, this is the most accurate. We can't help but think. Whether it is realistic or not, we still love to envision certain things. Let me cite an example: I received a call for a job interview and guess where my mind sent me... First, it thought about how to answer questions for the interview. That's pretty acceptable. Second, how to deal with the students and co-teachers if ever I'll get the job. Third is how to leave them when I get my opportunity to teach in public schools. See? It's so advance and mind you, when I say "thinking", it includes a complete scenario like what I will say, or even what I will wear on my first day.

For the past few days, I am doing nothing but think. I promised myself last week to accomplish everything but here I am blogging about the adversity of being an aquarius. I hate to admit it but I'm not good in bringing these thoughts to life. I'm lazy or busy or what?

bus·y  

/ˈbizē/

Adjective Having a great deal to do.

Verb Keep occupied: "she busied herself with her new home".

Synonyms adjective.   occupied - engaged - active verb.   occupy

Am I? I'm so occupied with my thoughts. I have a lot of things to do but I don't know where to start. I remember a quote that knocked me the first time I read it. It says, Stop managing your time and start managing your focus. Where should I focus first? Let us put them on a list.

These are the things that occupy my extremely active mind:

1. MATE

2. career

3. La Vie En Moi Shoppe

4. an updated version of me

5. blog

6. further studies

7. life purpose

8. money

Those are the things that I can think of right away. Next question is, what are my priorities?

FIRST will be the Master's Admission Test in Education or MATE. It'll happen on the 29th of August at UP Diliman. Yes, UP DILIMAN beybe! I've been dreaming of studying in this school- Unibersidad ng Pilipinas! Hello?! Who doesn't?? I'll get my masters here. I WILL wear sablay two years after. I need this, I can do this and I definitely want this!

SECOND is having a career, a purpose in life and money at the same time. I don't want a job. I want a career. I don't want to work just to pay bills because that is not living. I want to show them my skills. I want to change the world. Wow! Aquarian trait strikes again! hahaha But joking aside, I just want a career where my passion and purpose will bump into each other. I think I'm in the same group where Patty Laurel is. I am in between. I am one of the people who have been fortunate enough to choose a career path that is meaningful but also have to face the harsh realities that come with the job. I want to be an effective teacher but I want to own a house and travel the whole world. Is it possible? Maybe. We all know the salary status of a teacher, right? Patty's advise is "to actually GO OUT THERE and experience life. Volunteer, Apply for an Internship, Talk to other people in the field you are eyeing for tips and helpful info. Arm yourself with all the knowledge and experience you could possibly gather then from there try to see if it would be a good fit for you. It will take time so just be patient and don't pressure yourself too much. What matters is that you WANT TO WORK, you WANT TO MAKE A MARK---that is still much better than having no drive at all."

There will always be an unglamorous side to any type of job,

as long as it doesn't lead you to compromise your values and beliefs---

you gotta stomach it and just do it!

Besides, you'll develop skills you never knew you had which will help you in the long run.

~Patty Laurel~

So what will be my goal? The ideal is to find a job that I am good at, that I actually believe in, and which will compensate me fairly. So help me God.

THIRD is further studies. I don't have any teaching experiences aside from the year I instructed English as the Second Language for Koreans. But unfortunately school admins did not consider this. They focused mainly on my four years in the BPO industry. Knowledge is not enough. My accent is not enough. My drive to perfection is not enough. They want experience! And what the heck I can do? I can't bring back those five years anymore. I don't want to regret these two working experiences. Why should I regret something I once wanted? I should make myself marketable or fit with what they're looking for. I will make them need me, want me. Mwahahaha! (exagerated laugh) And how can I make myself marketable? Aside from pursuing a Master's Degree in University of the Philippines, I am also planning to take some TESDA courses like Commercial Cooking or Baking or Dress Making. Being an English major is difficult especially nowadays because the number of English major students is getting bigger. Talk about competency and the economic rule: demand and supply! lol. When I got the certification in any of these courses, I will be qualified to teach other subjects such as Technical Vocational Courses or even the TLE subject in high schools.

FOURTH is the updated version of me. If you know what I mean. hahaha

FIFTH is blogging. This is my only outlet. A place or means of escape. I actually love how exclusive this is. I don't really care if no one is visiting my site. I just want a place of my own. I want it online since I am too lazy to manually write this on my journal. hehehe

SIXTH is my very own shop - La Vie En Moi Shoppe. I love selling my pre-loved items. I need to declutter, organize and live. It also helps me to achieve my Minimalism goal which is Own less, Live more. 

That's it! Goodnight for now. Let this extremely active mind get some good sleep.

xx