Just A Thought: 2014.....loading!

It's been almost a month since I posted something here. I've been busy with the things I prayed months ago. A lot of stuff with regards to my Masters Degree. There's reflection papers, case study reports, thoughts about legal basis, reporting, etc. There were also a lot of meetings, programs, gift giving, kasalang bayan, and Christmas parties at the City Hall. I know I prayed for this. But never in my wildest dream would I have imagined that it will all come true. I was determined to get this but I never thought that the universe will agree...

Anyway, all these things started with this message I got from an fb app called "God wants you to know..."

afternoon of June 16, 2013

I posted this because that time, I was thinking to resign. I didn't think it would mean more than that. This message made a huge sense after I heard the saddest, most heartbreaking, and life shattering news of my life.

After that, without any second thoughts, I passed my resignation. I remembered all the things I planned and wanted in my life. I brood over the things that my father wanted and dreamed for me. I want to teach. I want a Masters Degree at UP Diliman. I still want to teach the oppressed and marginalized people. I don't want to work in a call center anymore.

I started my unemployed life by taking a short course at Calamba Manpower Development Center. I took Bread & Pastry Production NC II and I already got my certificate. I also took MATE or the Masters Admission Test in Education. I passed, I enrolled and 3 months from now, I'll finish my first semester in UP Diliman. I was also able to renew my license as a Professional Teacher. This is it. I am getting there.

Another thing I prayed so hard is for God to remind me that my purpose is not in a BPO industry. I worked there for 4 years. I enjoyed it but I was not fulfilled. There were a lot of times when I was tempted to apply again because I want money. You can imagine how depressed I was four or five months ago. I was broke. I was incomplete. I was left behind. It's like I was living someone else's life that I am not used to. It was like I'm in a bad dream. Everyday I was praying that everything was just a dream. When I heard that before, I thought it was only a cliche. But, no. It's real. It is happening. There will be an unfortunate event in your life and all you can do is just wish. Wish that it was a just a bad dream. But every morning, every single morning, reality will smack me and remind me that it is not.

I miss my dad. I know he will be the first one to say, ang galing ko. And to quote one of The Scripts' songs, I hope he's up there with God saying, 'That's my kid!'

 Moving on, I know several people were asking how I ended up working in the City Government of Calamba. Simple. I sent them a message that they might need me. And they do. They asked me to visit Mayor's Office, job offer, and that's it. I believe this is God working on my life. A day before that, a call center company was calling me and they're offering a job. God answered my prayer. Transcom will be the first and last call center company I'll be connected with.

Who would have thought that I will be working with the Mayor? That there's a job wherein you'll just stalk your crush and get paid? kidding! But yes, our City Mayor is super guapo, super talino and very opinionated. It actually came to the point that I don''t feel like working at all.

Ou City Mayor - Atty. Justin Marc SB Chipeco

Speaking of the Mayor, I remember that we will have our meeting / planning tomorrow with the department heads. City Mayor + department heads + me. Again, who would have thought? Haha.

God says, "Forget what happened before, and do not think about the past. Look at the new thing I am going to do. It is already happening. Don't you see it?" (Isaiah 43:18-19)

Dear 2013,
I am glad and joyful that you are finally done.
You broke my heart into tiny pieces.
I don't hate you but I don't like you.
Happy New Year!

xoxo

Life In Pixels: Missing my long hair!

Just A Thought: Common

I was born believing that I am exceptional.

That I can do anything I want. 

That I am great -great enough not to compromise. 

I believed that I am special. 

An independent woman who knows what she's doing, who knows all the way in and all the way out. 

But I am wrong.

There would come a time that you'll be left with no choices at all but to merely accept the fact that you've got a problem.

That you are full of flaws.

That you are not perfect and ideal.

-_-

xx

Just A Thought: Friendzoned

I was bored last night so I checked my old tweets. That was conceited, I know! Hahaha. But anyways, this is a story of a girl that fell in love with his boy bud. Srsly. Give me some new stories please! lol

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Yung mga naglalandian sa chat na kesyo dalhan mko ng food..

Pakain sa inyo.. 

Natatakot ako sa tatay mo..

Simba tayo..

Kumain kna? ...

Matulug kna.

Alis tayo this weekend. 

Kape tayo. 

Yung mas alam nya yung landline number nyo kesa sayo. 

May balak magpasko sa bahay.

Yung i-postponed yung isang lakad nya kase magkasama pa kayo. 

Huwag kang matakot. 

Tas kinikilala lahat ng kaibigan mo. 

Tas hnd alam ng gf nyang ure actually existing. 

Yung ayaw nyang pag-usapan yun pag magkasama kayo. 

Yung ka-close mo almost lahat ng pinsan nya. 

Tpos sa dinami dami ng tao, bakit sayo pa magpaparamdam ang tatay nya. 

Pareho kayong nagtaka.

Obvious ang rason pero walang nagsalita.

Yung mkikita mo nlng na ka tag ka sa picture. 

Itinabi pla nya yung sasakyan nya sa kotse nyo. 

Tas kinuhanan ng picture at tinweet.

Yung sbhin sayong "ayoko silang kasama pag wala ka." -pag nagyayakag yung barkada na lumabas tas hindi ka pwede... 

Yung sbhin sa friend mong "Para kasing hindi ako kumpleto pag wala si Jindra." 

Tas yung pinapakiusapan yung barkada nyang baguhin ang plano makasama ka lang s lakad..

Yung tanungin ka kung anung gusto mong chocolate at sya na lang magbbgay. 

Yung tatawag sa bahay at puro hello lang ang ssbhin. 

Yung tatawag sa tas ipaparinig lang sayo na natutunan na pla nyang gitarahin yung bago mong paboritong kanta na sb nya nung una, pangit daw pero hayan at ginigitara para sayo. 

Ngaun, masisisi nyo bko kung ganto nrrmdaman ko? Haha

Lahat ng yan ay tinatawag na pag-aassume! Hahahahahahaha WTF KMN SMH FML - lahat na!

LOL

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Disclaimer: those tweets were years ago! Please! I was able to outgrew it. Don't judge me. ;)

xx