Just A Thought: Wednesday Morning

milktea to cap off my Wednesday morning... paid bills • bank duties done (cant remember the last time I put some moolah in my savings acct! Thank God for the Christmas bonus!) • redeemed some gcs • & visited one of my favorite places -- National Bookstore! ...everything is incredibly upgraded since the last time I bought some art pens. Meron na pa lang twistable color pencil & watercolor pencils na babasain mo lang using a brush then viola! gah. getting old is amusing! Ha Ha

Just A Thought: Preparing ;)

I've been challenging myself to keep this trip as cheap as possible without compromising the essence of this ramble.

Surprisingly, the process was fun! Researched a lot, read numerous of personal blogs (thank God, nauso ang blogging!) and talked /  befriended the locals of these countries (online).

plane tickets • hotel vouchers • bus tickets • embassy contact information • maps ~ all set! i guess we're ready! ☺️ #indochinatrip #CambViet2014

Just A Thought. The Pre-Written Love Story

They met thru planning of a trek.

He likes her.

She likes him.

But he has a girlfriend.

She left him.

They met after several months.

He's now single.

He courted her.

They became official.

He transferred to her town.

They worked in the same place.

He proposed.

She said yes.

They got married.

-end-

Just A Thought: 2014.....loading!

It's been almost a month since I posted something here. I've been busy with the things I prayed months ago. A lot of stuff with regards to my Masters Degree. There's reflection papers, case study reports, thoughts about legal basis, reporting, etc. There were also a lot of meetings, programs, gift giving, kasalang bayan, and Christmas parties at the City Hall. I know I prayed for this. But never in my wildest dream would I have imagined that it will all come true. I was determined to get this but I never thought that the universe will agree...

Anyway, all these things started with this message I got from an fb app called "God wants you to know..."

afternoon of June 16, 2013

I posted this because that time, I was thinking to resign. I didn't think it would mean more than that. This message made a huge sense after I heard the saddest, most heartbreaking, and life shattering news of my life.

After that, without any second thoughts, I passed my resignation. I remembered all the things I planned and wanted in my life. I brood over the things that my father wanted and dreamed for me. I want to teach. I want a Masters Degree at UP Diliman. I still want to teach the oppressed and marginalized people. I don't want to work in a call center anymore.

I started my unemployed life by taking a short course at Calamba Manpower Development Center. I took Bread & Pastry Production NC II and I already got my certificate. I also took MATE or the Masters Admission Test in Education. I passed, I enrolled and 3 months from now, I'll finish my first semester in UP Diliman. I was also able to renew my license as a Professional Teacher. This is it. I am getting there.

Another thing I prayed so hard is for God to remind me that my purpose is not in a BPO industry. I worked there for 4 years. I enjoyed it but I was not fulfilled. There were a lot of times when I was tempted to apply again because I want money. You can imagine how depressed I was four or five months ago. I was broke. I was incomplete. I was left behind. It's like I was living someone else's life that I am not used to. It was like I'm in a bad dream. Everyday I was praying that everything was just a dream. When I heard that before, I thought it was only a cliche. But, no. It's real. It is happening. There will be an unfortunate event in your life and all you can do is just wish. Wish that it was a just a bad dream. But every morning, every single morning, reality will smack me and remind me that it is not.

I miss my dad. I know he will be the first one to say, ang galing ko. And to quote one of The Scripts' songs, I hope he's up there with God saying, 'That's my kid!'

 Moving on, I know several people were asking how I ended up working in the City Government of Calamba. Simple. I sent them a message that they might need me. And they do. They asked me to visit Mayor's Office, job offer, and that's it. I believe this is God working on my life. A day before that, a call center company was calling me and they're offering a job. God answered my prayer. Transcom will be the first and last call center company I'll be connected with.

Who would have thought that I will be working with the Mayor? That there's a job wherein you'll just stalk your crush and get paid? kidding! But yes, our City Mayor is super guapo, super talino and very opinionated. It actually came to the point that I don''t feel like working at all.

Ou City Mayor - Atty. Justin Marc SB Chipeco

Speaking of the Mayor, I remember that we will have our meeting / planning tomorrow with the department heads. City Mayor + department heads + me. Again, who would have thought? Haha.

God says, "Forget what happened before, and do not think about the past. Look at the new thing I am going to do. It is already happening. Don't you see it?" (Isaiah 43:18-19)

Dear 2013,
I am glad and joyful that you are finally done.
You broke my heart into tiny pieces.
I don't hate you but I don't like you.
Happy New Year!

xoxo

Just A Thought: Bakit?

Sa totoo lang, ayokong magtanong kung bakit. Kung bakit ka kinuha agad. All this time pinapatatag ko sarili ko. Pinipilit kong wag tanungin ang Diyos kung bakit ang aga namang bawiin ka samin. Ayoko sana syang kwestyunin. Pilit kong iniisip na may dahilan. Pero hindi ko na kayang hindi magtanong...

Anung dahilan?

Bakit ka kinuha agad?

Bakit ang aga?

Bakit ikaw pa?

Ano bang plano?

Ang daming nangyayare sa buhay ko ngayon, Di. At alam kong ikaw ang kaunaunahang matutuwa kung andito ka pa. Ikaw ang kaunaunahang magsasabi sa akin na "Ayos yan, Dang!"

Nagresign nko sa call center. Andito nko lagi sa Laguna ngayon. Alam ko ito ang gusto mo kahit hindi mo sinasabi skin dati.

Nag-apply na din ako sa DepEd. Balak ko na magturo. Ito ang pangarap mo skin, di ba? Actually pangarap ko din naman yan. Kaso natatakot ako dati eh. Feeling ko wala pa naman akong maibabahagi sa mga magiging estudyante ko.. Pero eto na.. Nag-file npo ako ng application.

Nagpapacertify na rin ako sa TESDA para sa NCII Certification para makapasok agad sa mga schools. Malapit na, Di...

Natuloy na din ang pagmamasteral ko. Namimiss kita. Sigurado akong kung andito ka pa, ikaw ang maghahatid skin kada papasok ako. Titiisin mo init ng araw maihatid lang ako sa Bus Station. At sympre, ikaw din ang kakaon sakin after school. Kahit gabing-gabi na. Namimiss ko umangkas sayo sa motor tuwing gabi.. Kada ihahatid mko. Yung amoy mo. Yung mga kwento mo. Yung mga tanong mo skin tungkol sa trabaho kahit alam ko na hindi naman un ang gusto mong trabaho para sakin. Mahal na mahal kita. Kahit kailan hindi mo ako pinressure. Hinayaan mo lang ako matuto sa sarili kong pagkakamali at makatuklas ng mga bagay mag-isa. Maraming salamat sa tiwala. Kada pauwi ako sa mula Manila naiisip kita. Naiiyak ako. Naiisip ko na sana andito ka pa. Na pag baba ko ng bus makikita kita na katabi ng motor, nag-iintay sakin.

Nga pala, Di... Nagttrabaho nko sa munisipyo ngayon. Isa to sa mga frustrations mo sa buhay dba? Ang bilis ng mga pangyayari.. Wala akong kilala ni isa sa kanila. Wala din namang nag-back up skin para makapasok ako sa city hall. Feeling ko kagagawan mo to eh. Nilakad mo to noh?

Sobrang miss na kita. Pero hindi ka naman na babalik eh. Yung thought lang na nasa laangit ka kasama si God, yun nlng ang nagpapalakas ng loob ko. Ikaw ang idolo ko, Di. Sana ang ibibigay ni Lord na mapapangasawa ko ay kagaya mo. Yun talaga lagi ang pinagdadasal ko. Kahawig ni Ryan Eigenmann, may takot sa Diyos at sympre gusto ko parang ikaw. Close to perfect. Kahit wag na yung unang category. Kahit yang second and last na lang. 

Mugto na mata ko. Wrong idea talaga tong pagpapatugtog ng "Butterfly Kisses" habang sumusulat sa'yo. Alam mo Di, umattend ako ng dalawang wedding last week. Hindi ko mapigilang maiyak dun sa dance with a father thing. Alam ko kase na hindi na yun mangyayari sa kasal ko. Wala na nga pla kong tatay na mag-sasayaw sa akin sa wedding day ko. Sabi ko pa naman dati, sa gabi bago ang kasal ko, sa gitna nyo ni mommy ako matutulog. Para for the last time, katabi ko ulit kayo matulog. Pero wala na.. Sa imagination ko nlng lahat yun matutupad...

Pakita ka naman sa panaginip ko, Di. Sobrang miss na kita... Mahal na mahal na mahal kita. Hindi ako magsasawang magpasalamat sa Diyos dahil pina-experience ka Nya samin. You're the best gift I've ever recieved.

Unti-unti nang natutupad ang pangarap ko, pangarap mo at plano sakin ni God. Ang weird at hindi ko maexplain pero ramdam kong He's working on my life. Parang lahat ng bagay na nagyayare, papunta dun.. Sana sa takdang araw, makita ulit kita. Hindi ka man makilala ng utak ko, alam kong ididikta ng puso ko na ikaw ang naging tatay ko sa lupa. Ipapaalala sakin ng puso ko kung gaano ka kaespesyal sakin. Sana dumating ang araw na maintindihan ko rin kung bakit ang aga mong nawala.. Pero kakapit ako sa plano ng Diyos para sating lahat. Sabi ko nga dati, hindi ko na tatanungin kung bakit nangyare. Pero sana tulungan Nya ko para maintindihan ko ang dahilan. Kase ngayon, pagkatapos ng kulang kulang limang buwan, hindi ko pa rin naiintindihan kung bakit ka kinuha agad..

:'(

Just A Thought: FIRST!!

First time to use flour, to knead and make a dough. This experience means a lot!

Coz duuuuudddeee!! Marunong nkong mag-gawa ng pandesal!! :)

Just A Thought: First Week @ CMDC

I enrolled to a short course at Calamba Manpower Development Center (CMDC) last month and it already started last October 1. We had an induction at Central I from 8am-5pm. There were talks about the center, the courses, and their rules. Mayor Timmy Chipeco was also there to give motivation to the trainers and trainees.

I was able to meet the other trainees taking the same course as mine which is Bread & Pastry Production. Good thing, there is no on the job training for this course unlike the Commercial Cooking NC II which requires an OJT at Max's.

The 60Php I paid when I enrolled was for the photo we'll need for the NC II Assessment on December. So technically, there is really NO PAYMENT for this course. Thank you so much, Mayor!

First day - we had an overview about our course. Our trainer is Mr. Vergillo Mendoza. He's super warm, friendly, funny, knowledgeable and kind! We also had our class election and I was elected as their sexytary. Haha!

I am so engrossed with this class! I love learning new things! I really don't have any idea about baking. The only food I can cook with flour is pancakes! Haha. I'm pretty sure that this will be fun! I will blog it once I got to bake my own pan de sal! :)

PS/off-topic:

I am still waiting and hoping for a positive result of my MATE (UP Diliman) ^^

xx

Just A Thought: Common

I was born believing that I am exceptional.

That I can do anything I want. 

That I am great -great enough not to compromise. 

I believed that I am special. 

An independent woman who knows what she's doing, who knows all the way in and all the way out. 

But I am wrong.

There would come a time that you'll be left with no choices at all but to merely accept the fact that you've got a problem.

That you are full of flaws.

That you are not perfect and ideal.

-_-

xx

Just A Thought: Friendzoned

I was bored last night so I checked my old tweets. That was conceited, I know! Hahaha. But anyways, this is a story of a girl that fell in love with his boy bud. Srsly. Give me some new stories please! lol

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Yung mga naglalandian sa chat na kesyo dalhan mko ng food..

Pakain sa inyo.. 

Natatakot ako sa tatay mo..

Simba tayo..

Kumain kna? ...

Matulug kna.

Alis tayo this weekend. 

Kape tayo. 

Yung mas alam nya yung landline number nyo kesa sayo. 

May balak magpasko sa bahay.

Yung i-postponed yung isang lakad nya kase magkasama pa kayo. 

Huwag kang matakot. 

Tas kinikilala lahat ng kaibigan mo. 

Tas hnd alam ng gf nyang ure actually existing. 

Yung ayaw nyang pag-usapan yun pag magkasama kayo. 

Yung ka-close mo almost lahat ng pinsan nya. 

Tpos sa dinami dami ng tao, bakit sayo pa magpaparamdam ang tatay nya. 

Pareho kayong nagtaka.

Obvious ang rason pero walang nagsalita.

Yung mkikita mo nlng na ka tag ka sa picture. 

Itinabi pla nya yung sasakyan nya sa kotse nyo. 

Tas kinuhanan ng picture at tinweet.

Yung sbhin sayong "ayoko silang kasama pag wala ka." -pag nagyayakag yung barkada na lumabas tas hindi ka pwede... 

Yung sbhin sa friend mong "Para kasing hindi ako kumpleto pag wala si Jindra." 

Tas yung pinapakiusapan yung barkada nyang baguhin ang plano makasama ka lang s lakad..

Yung tanungin ka kung anung gusto mong chocolate at sya na lang magbbgay. 

Yung tatawag sa bahay at puro hello lang ang ssbhin. 

Yung tatawag sa tas ipaparinig lang sayo na natutunan na pla nyang gitarahin yung bago mong paboritong kanta na sb nya nung una, pangit daw pero hayan at ginigitara para sayo. 

Ngaun, masisisi nyo bko kung ganto nrrmdaman ko? Haha

Lahat ng yan ay tinatawag na pag-aassume! Hahahahahahaha WTF KMN SMH FML - lahat na!

LOL

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Disclaimer: those tweets were years ago! Please! I was able to outgrew it. Don't judge me. ;)

xx

Just A Thought: Am I just being too theoretical?

Woke up at 5:30 in the morning yesterday feeling a bit lazy. But I know I had to get up, prepare and get the last requirement I need to teach in a Public School. That is the NBI Clearance. While I was filling up the application form, I noticed a woman who kept on glancing on my form. Feeling irked, I looked at her and said "Yes?". She then asked me what a middle name is. I suddenly remembered those days I got to experience teaching old folks in a rural place in Quezon on how to fill up a Bio Data you can buy in a Sari-Sari Store. Or the difference of middle name and middle initial. Yes, as simple as that. Years of working and dealing with literate people made me forget the bliss I got when a mother of six successfully finished filling up her own Bio Data after our simple "tutorial" at her home.

I was teary eyed. I admit, I have a very low EQ. Anyway, I would like to believe that it is God's way of reminding me about my dreams. It's like He's there saying I am on a right path and that's the point of getting Non-Formal Education for my masteral. 

After taking MATE last August 29, I had a hard time convincing myself that I chose the right field. It was like Passion VS Security. Passion - I have always wanted to teach in not the ordinary way. I have this desire to help adults, out-of-school youth from rural places and those with disabilities here in our country who have no means in going and learning in a formal school.  But that also means staying in a rural place and basically just giving and no taking. If you know what I meant on that. Security - master SPED or Special Education. That's self explanatory but for those who are not aware, you can earn up to $60,000 a year if you're a SPED Teacher in the U.S. of A. And I guess you're correct. When you have this major, better apply abroad for higher salary. (I think that's a common knowledge.) But I.DONT.LIKE. the idea of leaving this country and my family.

Next scene supports that idea. Where? Cashier.

I was paying the NBI processing fee and the cashier, for no reasons at all, said "Dito ka lang ha. Wag kang aalis." and so I answered, "Opo. Dito lang ako. Hindi ako aalis."

~

Now tell me. Am I just being too theoretical or these are the signs?

Well I prefer the latter. :)

xx

Just A Thought: Posible.

Gusto kong maging guro.

Sa Pilipinas.

Sa liblib na lugar.

Yung hindi ka lang basta guro.

Yung tipong isa kang life-changer.

Ayoko mangibang bansa.

Ayokong magtrabaho para sa ibang lahi.

Gusto ko dito.

Gusto kong makitang unti-unti tayong umuunlad.

Lalong lalo na ang antas ng edukasyon.

Pero gusto kong yumaman.

Gustong makabili ng sarili kong kotse.

Makapamasyal sa iba't ibang bansa.

Maitayo ang pangarap kong bahay.

Mapag-tapos ng kolehiyo mga pinsan ko.

Posible ba yon?

~

Ika nga ni DILG Secretary Jesse Robredo, mahirap yung naitulak ka lang ng unos sa ginagawa mo. Mahirap yong walang benefit ang talent mo. Not so many choices. You take what is given you. Yun ang naging buhay nya. Masuwerte na rin daw dahil overachieving pero ayon sa kanya, parang may kulang pa rin.

2 months and 3 days na akong unemployed. Okay pa naman. Hindi naman siguro ako pabigat sa bahay but at the same time, hindi rin ako nakakatulong.

"The only way to always be relevant is to focus on what's eternal. Everything in style will soon be out of style" - Pastor Rick Warren

Wag kang bibitaw sa pangarap mo, Jindra. Posible yan.

xx

Just A Thought: Pray for PEACE

 U.S. Senate panel approves resolution giving President Barack Obama authority to use military force against Syria.

WE CAN'T FEED THE POOR

BUT

WE CAN FUND A WAR?

srsly.

Just A Thought: PRAY FOR SYRIA

ANG SAKIT PANOORIN NITO.

PERO SA ISANG BANDA, NAISIP KO NA OKAY NA.

ATLIS WALA NANG NARARANSANG GYERA ANG MGA BATANG ITO.

PLEASE, COMFORT THEM LORD GOD.

ALAM KONG MAGIGING MASAYA SILA DYAN SA LANGIT KAPILING MO.

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xx

Just A Thought: Best [space] Friends

I am one of those people who give no credence to the word "bestfriends".

It's so mainstream and overrated.

But I would like to commend these two friends that I have for more than 13 years now.

They are my best [space] friends.

They're like siblings-from-another-set-of-parents.

They are the one who doesn't ask why.

And they never oblige me to explain.

They knew it right away.

They truthfully understand and they always lift my spirit.

Me, Ma-Ann & Jeff

I love you guys.

xx

Just A Thought. MATE

I took MATE or the Master's Admission Test in Education at UP Diliman yesterday and I am feeling positive about it. Kahit natraffic ako sa Makati. lechugas! I left home 4 hours before the schedule of my exam. Sobrang traffic sa may Pasay Road so I decided to get off the bus and just ride the MRT sa may Buendia. The usual route I take is yung sa Trinoma. But this time, I tried the Quezon Ave route. Mas okay nga sya... Pag labas mo ng MRT, there's already a jeep na UP Ikot ang ruta.

Fast forwarrrdddd....

I didnt have the test permit. I didn't recieve their snail mail. I just checked my email and found out na kahapon nga ang exam ko. I didnt have any pencils either. Kase wala namang nakalagay sa email. Buti na lang mabait ung seatmate ko. I'm not sure kung madadali nga ba yung tanong or dahil nagreview ako. haha yabang! :)) It was tiring though. Imagine answering 130 questions that include Language Proficiency, Numerical Ability, Critical Thinking, Abstract Reasoning, Educational Thought and Practice, and Teacher Qualities plus an essay with 350 words. I admit, nahirapan ako sa essay. The question was about K-12 and I honestly don't know anything about it. Sorry naman. At hindi nga ata essay ang nagawa ko eh. Speech! haha

Anyway, I think I did okay naman... So I guess I'll see UP Diliman on November.. In God's will and in God's grace, I decree and declare na I'll be admitted in that university! :)

Me and the canopy. ;)

Just A Thought: Buwaboys.

My Facebook status two days before the Million People March.

I resigned from a BPO company in Ortigas after my father's death last Fathers' Day. It's depressing to watch news every single day about this Pork Barrel Scam. I feel betrayed at the same time, disarmed. Why because I am jobless. Within that 5 years of working, wala ni isang payday na hindi ko naisusumpa ang tax deduction on my payslip.

A day before...

I knew I have to be in Luneta on the 26th. I needed to. I wanted to. I asked my Mom if I could go and for the very first time, she allowed me to join the protest. Fortunately, my orgmates from the Society of Young Leaders (a non-government organization in my previous school, Colegio de San Juan de Letran) are also going.

Right thing to do.

Aeta youth just made me braver.

When I saw these Aetas from Zambales yesterday, I was teary-eyed and feeling goosebumps all over. I knew right away that I am fighting for the right thing. Dun ko nasabing tama na naandun ako. Na nagpunta ko sa Luneta.

My stand...

...at Luneta for the Million People March

1st - Scrap Pork Barrel
I don't think it is a necessity. Joker Arroyo served as Makati representative from 1992 to 2001 then became senator from 2001 to June 2013 but he never used his pork. As per Philippine Daily Inquirer, Arroyo said these earlier this year - "“I do not touch nor avail myself of the pork barrel so I wouldn’t know about kickbacks. I do not spend even half of that for my office expenses. What is not spent is retained in the general fund of the Senate. That is why for 20 straight years, starting when I was in the House of Representatives and continued in the Senate, I have earned the title ‘Scrooge of Congress’ for being the thriftiest, most frugal and tight-fisted legislator."

2nd - Pass the FOI (Freedom Of Information) Bill this year.
Yes, we need it as soon as possible!

3rd - Jail the buwaboys!
Patalsikin at papanagutin ang mga buwaya at baboy sa gobyerno. Ang mga alagad nilang tulad ni Napoles. 

xx

Just A Thought: Renewal of Professional ID

Finally! After more than a year, sinipag akong magparenew ng lisensya.

Kudos to PRC Central Office in Morayta

- wala pang 30mins ang process. :)

I paid 660Php for it (annual&surcharge fee)

visit PRC site for the steps on how to.

xx

Just A Thought: The Adversity of Being An Aquarius

Aquarians have extremely active minds. Whether they're planning for the future or obsessing over a current project, they spend a lot of time thinking and typically have a hard time shutting down.

- glo

Of all the characteristics of an Aquarius, this is the most accurate. We can't help but think. Whether it is realistic or not, we still love to envision certain things. Let me cite an example: I received a call for a job interview and guess where my mind sent me... First, it thought about how to answer questions for the interview. That's pretty acceptable. Second, how to deal with the students and co-teachers if ever I'll get the job. Third is how to leave them when I get my opportunity to teach in public schools. See? It's so advance and mind you, when I say "thinking", it includes a complete scenario like what I will say, or even what I will wear on my first day.

For the past few days, I am doing nothing but think. I promised myself last week to accomplish everything but here I am blogging about the adversity of being an aquarius. I hate to admit it but I'm not good in bringing these thoughts to life. I'm lazy or busy or what?

bus·y  

/ˈbizē/

Adjective Having a great deal to do.

Verb Keep occupied: "she busied herself with her new home".

Synonyms adjective.   occupied - engaged - active verb.   occupy

Am I? I'm so occupied with my thoughts. I have a lot of things to do but I don't know where to start. I remember a quote that knocked me the first time I read it. It says, Stop managing your time and start managing your focus. Where should I focus first? Let us put them on a list.

These are the things that occupy my extremely active mind:

1. MATE

2. career

3. La Vie En Moi Shoppe

4. an updated version of me

5. blog

6. further studies

7. life purpose

8. money

Those are the things that I can think of right away. Next question is, what are my priorities?

FIRST will be the Master's Admission Test in Education or MATE. It'll happen on the 29th of August at UP Diliman. Yes, UP DILIMAN beybe! I've been dreaming of studying in this school- Unibersidad ng Pilipinas! Hello?! Who doesn't?? I'll get my masters here. I WILL wear sablay two years after. I need this, I can do this and I definitely want this!

SECOND is having a career, a purpose in life and money at the same time. I don't want a job. I want a career. I don't want to work just to pay bills because that is not living. I want to show them my skills. I want to change the world. Wow! Aquarian trait strikes again! hahaha But joking aside, I just want a career where my passion and purpose will bump into each other. I think I'm in the same group where Patty Laurel is. I am in between. I am one of the people who have been fortunate enough to choose a career path that is meaningful but also have to face the harsh realities that come with the job. I want to be an effective teacher but I want to own a house and travel the whole world. Is it possible? Maybe. We all know the salary status of a teacher, right? Patty's advise is "to actually GO OUT THERE and experience life. Volunteer, Apply for an Internship, Talk to other people in the field you are eyeing for tips and helpful info. Arm yourself with all the knowledge and experience you could possibly gather then from there try to see if it would be a good fit for you. It will take time so just be patient and don't pressure yourself too much. What matters is that you WANT TO WORK, you WANT TO MAKE A MARK---that is still much better than having no drive at all."

There will always be an unglamorous side to any type of job,

as long as it doesn't lead you to compromise your values and beliefs---

you gotta stomach it and just do it!

Besides, you'll develop skills you never knew you had which will help you in the long run.

~Patty Laurel~

So what will be my goal? The ideal is to find a job that I am good at, that I actually believe in, and which will compensate me fairly. So help me God.

THIRD is further studies. I don't have any teaching experiences aside from the year I instructed English as the Second Language for Koreans. But unfortunately school admins did not consider this. They focused mainly on my four years in the BPO industry. Knowledge is not enough. My accent is not enough. My drive to perfection is not enough. They want experience! And what the heck I can do? I can't bring back those five years anymore. I don't want to regret these two working experiences. Why should I regret something I once wanted? I should make myself marketable or fit with what they're looking for. I will make them need me, want me. Mwahahaha! (exagerated laugh) And how can I make myself marketable? Aside from pursuing a Master's Degree in University of the Philippines, I am also planning to take some TESDA courses like Commercial Cooking or Baking or Dress Making. Being an English major is difficult especially nowadays because the number of English major students is getting bigger. Talk about competency and the economic rule: demand and supply! lol. When I got the certification in any of these courses, I will be qualified to teach other subjects such as Technical Vocational Courses or even the TLE subject in high schools.

FOURTH is the updated version of me. If you know what I mean. hahaha

FIFTH is blogging. This is my only outlet. A place or means of escape. I actually love how exclusive this is. I don't really care if no one is visiting my site. I just want a place of my own. I want it online since I am too lazy to manually write this on my journal. hehehe

SIXTH is my very own shop - La Vie En Moi Shoppe. I love selling my pre-loved items. I need to declutter, organize and live. It also helps me to achieve my Minimalism goal which is Own less, Live more. 

That's it! Goodnight for now. Let this extremely active mind get some good sleep.

xx

Just A Thought: Mom's Birthday

If ever you'll come across my blog, I just want you to know that I love you and I adore you so much.

The way you deal with life is remarkable.

All those times you have an answer for all of our questions are appreciated.

For all these years that you've been a very good provider of all our needs.

I love you and I am sorry for all my shortcomings. :)

xx 

Just A Thought: Talented Pinay

...found myself spending hours and hours listening to some covers and original songs of these fellow pinays. Check their account! They're <3.

Sarah Caballero | Chelsea Ronquillo | Inky Callora

well i guess there's something if you have a double L on your last name, huh? hehe

xx