Musing: 025

"Holding on to things will only break your heart."

Mitch Albom (The Time Keeper)

Excerpt: Focus

Life In Pixels: 3 Months

Missing you, dad. <3

Musing: 024

"Not knowing is what really bothers me."

"And I wonder if anyone is really happy."

"Sometimes people use thought to not participate in life."

"Charlie, we accept the love we think we deserve."

"I feel infinite."

"It was so delicious, it almost scared me."

"You see things. You keep quiet about them. And you understand."

"Sam looked at me soft. And she hugged me. And I closed my eyes because I wanted to know nothing but her arms."

"I want to make sure that the first person you kiss loves you. Okay?"

"It was the kind of kiss that made me know that I was never so happy in my whole life."

~ THE PERKS OF BEING A WALLFLOWER ~

Just A Thought: Am I just being too theoretical?

Woke up at 5:30 in the morning yesterday feeling a bit lazy. But I know I had to get up, prepare and get the last requirement I need to teach in a Public School. That is the NBI Clearance. While I was filling up the application form, I noticed a woman who kept on glancing on my form. Feeling irked, I looked at her and said "Yes?". She then asked me what a middle name is. I suddenly remembered those days I got to experience teaching old folks in a rural place in Quezon on how to fill up a Bio Data you can buy in a Sari-Sari Store. Or the difference of middle name and middle initial. Yes, as simple as that. Years of working and dealing with literate people made me forget the bliss I got when a mother of six successfully finished filling up her own Bio Data after our simple "tutorial" at her home.

I was teary eyed. I admit, I have a very low EQ. Anyway, I would like to believe that it is God's way of reminding me about my dreams. It's like He's there saying I am on a right path and that's the point of getting Non-Formal Education for my masteral. 

After taking MATE last August 29, I had a hard time convincing myself that I chose the right field. It was like Passion VS Security. Passion - I have always wanted to teach in not the ordinary way. I have this desire to help adults, out-of-school youth from rural places and those with disabilities here in our country who have no means in going and learning in a formal school.  But that also means staying in a rural place and basically just giving and no taking. If you know what I meant on that. Security - master SPED or Special Education. That's self explanatory but for those who are not aware, you can earn up to $60,000 a year if you're a SPED Teacher in the U.S. of A. And I guess you're correct. When you have this major, better apply abroad for higher salary. (I think that's a common knowledge.) But I.DONT.LIKE. the idea of leaving this country and my family.

Next scene supports that idea. Where? Cashier.

I was paying the NBI processing fee and the cashier, for no reasons at all, said "Dito ka lang ha. Wag kang aalis." and so I answered, "Opo. Dito lang ako. Hindi ako aalis."

~

Now tell me. Am I just being too theoretical or these are the signs?

Well I prefer the latter. :)

xx

Life In Pixels: #selfie

Musing: 023

Someone is praying for the very things you take for granted.

~unknown~

Just A Thought: Posible.

Gusto kong maging guro.

Sa Pilipinas.

Sa liblib na lugar.

Yung hindi ka lang basta guro.

Yung tipong isa kang life-changer.

Ayoko mangibang bansa.

Ayokong magtrabaho para sa ibang lahi.

Gusto ko dito.

Gusto kong makitang unti-unti tayong umuunlad.

Lalong lalo na ang antas ng edukasyon.

Pero gusto kong yumaman.

Gustong makabili ng sarili kong kotse.

Makapamasyal sa iba't ibang bansa.

Maitayo ang pangarap kong bahay.

Mapag-tapos ng kolehiyo mga pinsan ko.

Posible ba yon?

~

Ika nga ni DILG Secretary Jesse Robredo, mahirap yung naitulak ka lang ng unos sa ginagawa mo. Mahirap yong walang benefit ang talent mo. Not so many choices. You take what is given you. Yun ang naging buhay nya. Masuwerte na rin daw dahil overachieving pero ayon sa kanya, parang may kulang pa rin.

2 months and 3 days na akong unemployed. Okay pa naman. Hindi naman siguro ako pabigat sa bahay but at the same time, hindi rin ako nakakatulong.

"The only way to always be relevant is to focus on what's eternal. Everything in style will soon be out of style" - Pastor Rick Warren

Wag kang bibitaw sa pangarap mo, Jindra. Posible yan.

xx

Musing: 022

If God had wanted me otherwise, He would have created me otherwise.

~Goethe~

Life In Pixels: Passion

Foodie: Batchoy

Batchoy

luya

bawang

sibuyas

karne/lamang loob ng babsi

dugo

tubig

miswa

kinchay

salt to taste

;)

Just A Thought: Pray for PEACE

 U.S. Senate panel approves resolution giving President Barack Obama authority to use military force against Syria.

WE CAN'T FEED THE POOR

BUT

WE CAN FUND A WAR?

srsly.

Musing: 021

I asked God for strength. God gave me difficulties to make me strong.

@Godstagram

Just A Thought: PRAY FOR SYRIA

ANG SAKIT PANOORIN NITO.

PERO SA ISANG BANDA, NAISIP KO NA OKAY NA.

ATLIS WALA NANG NARARANSANG GYERA ANG MGA BATANG ITO.

PLEASE, COMFORT THEM LORD GOD.

ALAM KONG MAGIGING MASAYA SILA DYAN SA LANGIT KAPILING MO.

</3

xx

Musing: 020

Today, Jindra, we believe God wants you to know that ...

you've got what it takes.

God won't give you more than you can handle. Although there may have been times you thought the world was caving in on you, you got through it. You are much stronger than you think and with God's power, you are stronger than you can imagine. So charge ahead, you can handle it.

- God wants You to Know App at Facebook

Just A Thought: Best [space] Friends

I am one of those people who give no credence to the word "bestfriends".

It's so mainstream and overrated.

But I would like to commend these two friends that I have for more than 13 years now.

They are my best [space] friends.

They're like siblings-from-another-set-of-parents.

They are the one who doesn't ask why.

And they never oblige me to explain.

They knew it right away.

They truthfully understand and they always lift my spirit.

Me, Ma-Ann & Jeff

I love you guys.

xx

Musing: 019

"He who closes his ears to the views of others shows little confidence in the integrity of his own views."

William Congreve

Musing: 018

"You made a courageous decision & are now faced with incredible opportunities. It's a matter of good, better, best. Discernment is the key."

@sarah_meier

Just A Thought. MATE

I took MATE or the Master's Admission Test in Education at UP Diliman yesterday and I am feeling positive about it. Kahit natraffic ako sa Makati. lechugas! I left home 4 hours before the schedule of my exam. Sobrang traffic sa may Pasay Road so I decided to get off the bus and just ride the MRT sa may Buendia. The usual route I take is yung sa Trinoma. But this time, I tried the Quezon Ave route. Mas okay nga sya... Pag labas mo ng MRT, there's already a jeep na UP Ikot ang ruta.

Fast forwarrrdddd....

I didnt have the test permit. I didn't recieve their snail mail. I just checked my email and found out na kahapon nga ang exam ko. I didnt have any pencils either. Kase wala namang nakalagay sa email. Buti na lang mabait ung seatmate ko. I'm not sure kung madadali nga ba yung tanong or dahil nagreview ako. haha yabang! :)) It was tiring though. Imagine answering 130 questions that include Language Proficiency, Numerical Ability, Critical Thinking, Abstract Reasoning, Educational Thought and Practice, and Teacher Qualities plus an essay with 350 words. I admit, nahirapan ako sa essay. The question was about K-12 and I honestly don't know anything about it. Sorry naman. At hindi nga ata essay ang nagawa ko eh. Speech! haha

Anyway, I think I did okay naman... So I guess I'll see UP Diliman on November.. In God's will and in God's grace, I decree and declare na I'll be admitted in that university! :)

Me and the canopy. ;)

Life In Pixels: Quarter